There’s this boy who has my heart.  He calls me his mommy.  While I might be his mom for this moment, I am not his forever mom.

"Every child deserves a foster parent whose heart will break when they leave." Girl with balloons in a field. #fostercare

A few months ago I made a decision.  It was hard and heartbreaking.  After talking with HJ, I knew it was the choice that had to be made.  HJ and little one get along, they like to play, and they love each other.  But the bond isn’t what it should be.

I talked with friends who have adopted, and their kids have a different connection then my boys.  I talked with parents who made the decision not to adopt, because of the bond between the kids, and realized we fell into that category.

I love little one with all my heart.  I know I would be forever happy to be his mom, but I know God has other things in store for him.

Shortly after contemplating this, I met “them”.  His perfect forever and ever family.  The first time we all met, I cried.  I knew it was right.  They love him like I do.

For now, I am still his mom.  But I know this will end.  I can’t say I am ready for it, but I don’t think I ever will be.  He will always hold a special place in my heart, and in our home.

4 Thoughts on “Mom for This Moment

  1. It takes a very special person to do what you’re doing. I look up to you for this. He has a special place in my heart and it hurts thinking about not seeing him like I do now so I can’t imagine how yours hurt. Don’t ever forget how much you have done for him, and how much you will do for your next! You’re amazing

    • Melanie Tournier on September 19, 2017 at 5:27 pm said:

      I would agree that this is one of the hardest decisions to make and it’s definitely not easy. Even through the process you still might question if this is right or not because you have held his heart with you like he is your own flesh and blood. But then you realize their is another purpose for him and that you were lucky enough to love him for the time that you had with him. As the days become shorter with your family and you see him with his forever family you know it is perfect.
      Thinking of you ❤️

  2. So much love to you all! I think you’re doing an amazing thing, keep up the good work!

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