You know one of those moments where your head is overwhelmed with thought but you can’t quite get it onto paper?  Tonight is one of those.

I received some news tonight regarding a friend, and haven’t had time to process it.  I thought writing would help, but after I had a post all written, I hit delete.

Without trying to cause drama, there are some people I wish I could have helped.

There are people I should have been kinder to.  People I should have helped more.  People that I should not have held my tongue for.

On the flip side, there are some people I have been too kind to.  Some that I have let repeatedly break my heart.  And some that I gave too much.

You never know what is actually going through another person’s head.  You never know what they are feeling.

And then you wonder.  What if I had said something?  What if instead of joking about it with friends, we actually voiced our concerns?  What if I had been a better friend?

I didn’t realize that another’s stupid mistake could make another friend so visibly shaken over the phone.  I didn’t realize that her actions could make my friends and I feel guilty when we did nothing.  Or maybe that is why I am feeling guilty?

Heavy words to start a weekend with, I know.

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3 Thoughts on “No Words.

  1. Breenah A on April 11, 2014 at 6:35 am said:

    It never helps to think “what if?” but that doesn’t stop me from doing it too.
    *hugs*

  2. Sending some love your way! If you need to talk I am here :)

  3. Sarah Cooper on April 13, 2014 at 8:19 am said:

    Great post. I felt (and still feel) the same way. Was there anything we could have done to help a friend out? But honestly, I think the answer to that is no. First, we were at a stage in our lives that is a “coming of life” for everyone. We were all trying to figure ourselves out; let alone thinking about how we can help others. Secondly, this situation was beyond what we could have done. Our words could have shown kindness and concern, but wouldn’t have fixed. Just know that there’s others feeling the same way you are dear.

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