You know one of those moments where your head is overwhelmed with thought but you can’t quite get it onto paper? Tonight is one of those.
I received some news tonight regarding a friend, and haven’t had time to process it. I thought writing would help, but after I had a post all written, I hit delete.
Without trying to cause drama, there are some people I wish I could have helped.
There are people I should have been kinder to. People I should have helped more. People that I should not have held my tongue for.
On the flip side, there are some people I have been too kind to. Some that I have let repeatedly break my heart. And some that I gave too much.
You never know what is actually going through another person’s head. You never know what they are feeling.
And then you wonder. What if I had said something? What if instead of joking about it with friends, we actually voiced our concerns? What if I had been a better friend?
I didn’t realize that another’s stupid mistake could make another friend so visibly shaken over the phone. I didn’t realize that her actions could make my friends and I feel guilty when we did nothing. Or maybe that is why I am feeling guilty?
Heavy words to start a weekend with, I know.