Excuse me while I whine a little…

Do you ever worry that you made the wrong decision?

3 years ago, I left the job field I was in to pursue a different area.  The new area allowed me to be close to family, but in a small town.  I accepted a job that paid a significant amount less than what I had been making figuring after a year or 2 I could find something else, or at the very least, my raises would add up and get me back where I was.

The thing is, I live in a small town.  Jobs are hard to come by.  And not only that, but now I have been out of my previous area for 3 years.  Leaving me unqualified.

I recently had a promising job interview.  I lost sleep over it.  I prepared, writing down numerous situations to hopefully be ready to answer questions.  I took time off work so I could go home and get ready for the interview.  When I was called for the 2nd phone interview, the first question caught me off guard.  I hadn’t prepared for it.  I fumbled my way through it.

It was frustrating.  I use to interview people for a job, and could ace any job interview.  But I haven’t done that in 3 years.

She asked the next question.  I felt panic again.  Then she said, “ok, last question.” Last question?  I was finally starting to feel the nerves go away.  I finally was feeling like I could answer how she wanted me to.  The third question was a scenario I had written in my notes.  Then the interview was over.

I hung up the phone and cried.  I felt like I had officially blown my one shot at getting a job in the field I want to be in.  And not only that, but I would finally be making what my salary was 5 years ago.  I would finally be able to not panic between paychecks and not wonder how I was going to pay daycare this month.

And because this job meant so much to me…not just a new job, but a new life…I had panicked and blown the chance.

Today I received the email that I was no longer being considered for the position.  I knew it was coming, but part of me was still hoping.  Three questions.  That was it.  I managed to blow it in 3 small questions.

I looked back at our local job boards today and there was nothing posted, once again.  I entered in a new search today with “Des Moines” as the city and was greeted with numerous opportunities.  The place I left to start fresh.  It is so frustrating to know that I could move there and easily make a significant amount of more money.  At what point do I realize that in order to be successful, I might have to move?

2 Thoughts on “Job Woes

  1. I think of it as “what happens in vegas, stays in vegas”. you prepare as much as you possibly can. and when the interview comes you give it your all & leave it on the table. job searching is stressful, mostly when you’re depending on it or become very vested in the position. it takes so much out of you. and I cannot even tell you how many times I’ve walked out of an interview, or hung up the phone ..thought it went great and got the dreaded “we went with another candidate” response. sometimes after several weeks of waiting. it’s draining. if it’s meant to be, it’ll happen. you didn’t blow it. don’t think that way – they’re the ones missing out. [think that way]. even after about 16 “we went with someone else” responses ..I think that way. if only I could portray that in the interview a little better ;). you’ll find something worthy of you. and if it’s in des moines, that wouldn’t be so bad!

  2. I feel your pain. I am doing the interview process right now. And I recently got an interview I would love to have. But I was so nervous I think I might have blew it. Sadly I am still in the stage of waiting to hear back.

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